Im Having a Moment…

What a long week. I know it just started but I can’t even remember if its Monday or Tuesday right now. All I can say is I drank lots of coffee, my arthritis and psoraisis is back in full swing and I just dropped everything out of my purse. What a mess. The only good thing that came out of today was trying the living proof products. I love the light purple line. Is it repair or restore? Terrible memory issues right now.

I was eating terribly for the past 2 days or so and my skin broke out and I was like ugh. So Im kinda doing the switch products around thing. Im also trying to do as little sugar and starch diet to undo the damage. I was super excited reading the into the gloss article today.  Im still on the fence about some of the more organic hair care lines because they smell rather strong but Garrett Markenson products are really good. I love reading top shelf articles. On a sad note my attempt to get my hands on the Anastasia Beverly Hills palette was an epic fail. They sold out at the store I like to stop by because of all the discounts and black friday sales. I was so bummed. I only want the one palette so I was like Im not getting it shipped to me because I dont want a cracked palette and have to cry as I send it back to refund!


Its Thanksgiving-and I’m Thankful.

I must say I had an interesting late October and mid November. I can’t figure out how November is almost over but there were some bumps along the road. I had a very bad November and I had to sit down and remember all of the horrible things that happened then I thought to myself, why would I look back and get angry when Thanksgiving is around the corner? I have great friends, a mentor I email who responds with great advice(for free thanks Brandon)and my mother isn’t dying of cancer. What we thought was cancer was not cancer!

It was 2 years ago this month that I was almost homeless being tormented by the same person who always pretended to have the best interest in me yet would say horrible things in person or to other people about me. She would invite me to places while she would text away and smirk. It was very unhealthy and my father would be like “see the good in people” and I did. If I let this person hurt me for 18 years I tried, dad. So my dad and I were always people that never agreed on things but when I was stranded, homeless and he was the only one with computer access and the ability to book me a hotel he did. That is the kind of father I am blessed with. I couldn’t be upset I have a roof over my head and food on the table-and these awesome Ugg slippers I bought at Ross for less. So today I want to give thanks to everyone that has helped me and loved me though the thick and thin and for the readers that brighten my week! Happy Thanksgiving!


I washed with Juice beauty cleanser and I used a pumpkin enzyme mask and finished my look with Juice beauty cc cream. The cc cream makes my skin look so smooth and dewy that I don’t want to take it off.

Eating Better: Adding Soy and Selenium to the daily diet.

So I’m on day 4 of my “eat better” diet and I’ve lost a lot of face fat, and midsection fat, and even cleared my complexion while doing so. I quietly jotted down what a doctor was saying on a Japanese health show I watched many weekends ago. It took me some time to really sit down and commit to what he said. Here was his advice he said eat less junk food possibly minimal eat little meat because it takes longer to digest and process in your system and he basically went on to say eat foods that are fermented(kimchi, miso)eat soy or other veggies and eat mushrooms and yogurt. I had at one point given up yogurt and all dairy thanks to the celebrity buzz but I’ve always loved yogurt so I do mostly greek yogurt now because they do lower sugar ones!

I can slip right into my once too tight jeans! Buying healthier groceries never felt so easy and good!

So Far, So Good.

September’s just begun and I am loving it. The weather here is chilly, mostly rainy on and off but I love days where I can be lazy about my skincare. We had a thunderstorm yesterday but I made it home in time to avoid the hardcore stuff. I’m back to working out and I’m in the middle of this dvd I just bought and I’m hoping the ending is well worth it. If it isn’t I’ll bring my JBL speakers with me. My goodness I love that portable speaker. Its waterproof, the sound is so good and easy to place anywhere.

Yesterday I was pleased to see Jean Godfrey June on intothegloss. I read some of the comments there and I was like you should go green where you can and mix and match in other areas. I think being scared of sulfates can be dangerous because are you going to just start throwing out your items when you find it in there? I like a mixture of green and nongreen products. I was very interested in the vintner’s daughters serum because I own it and have never really used it consistently. Its been too sunny or i’d been wearing too much vitamin c products and I didn’t have the right sunscreen or whatever but this weather is perfect for me to use it on the daily. I also own the blue cocoon. I love that blue cocoon balm. I’m getting ready to buy some hardcore sunscreen so it looks like perfect timing. On another note has anyone realized how aggressive some of these delivery company workers are? Smashing packages deliberately like they have anger issues? What happened to being happy you were employed and pride in your job? I was horrified seeing my last shipment I laughed a little. I look forward to writing about new products I bought this month!


Its Wednesday but it feels like a Friday. My week started with a creeper ringing my doorbell at the wee hours of morning, then waiting for the call to get our house fixed up here and there and it is officially done! The man who came was a very nice man the reason I know is that my normally growl-at-strangers puppy was like “ooh I like him” no growl, not one bark just tail wagging. My mom goes “look at that she just loves him I knew he was a good guy.”

I know I’m in my 30s because I just love watching the diy shows. I get hooked on those tiny house shows where the houses are smaller but really nice. I ended up watching a marathon on one occasion and I was like a-mazing. I want one of those new thing porcelain sinks they have at modern homes in the smaller bathrooms you know? Its just so simple and elegant but my dad was like we’d have to change the pipings and blahblah so I was like nvm but oh man if I ever get rich..I’d get a small house maybe even smaller than the one I currently live in and add French doors and that sink somewhere and paint the rooms sage and ivory. housegoals!

I’m very nervous about September because that’s when I have to give up my favorite drinks and foods. I look forward to picking up a new hobby to keep my mind off the “good stuff” like the lattes and desserts. What to do what to do.

While I was Sleeping…

So I’m off the whole social media thing barely checking email I log in and everyone is pregnant or moving. What the heck. I need to get out more because I’m not finding opportunities of meeting people. The only guy I find remotely my type is the guy down the street.

I like the whole idea of being pregnant and being so far along not telling people and going YUP surpise! The only thing I’m worried about right now is how dry my hair and skin is. I can’t even really focus I still have to send in my applications too. I haven’t bought my tickets yet and its when I’m still behind that a random friend emails me to ask me what I did this summer. For once I was like dental work. I have to head back to the dentist at the end of the month but aside from that I’m an open book.

I thought about the 120 or 150 degree heat in California and I was like I’m not going to complain because things could be worse. I don’t know how I make it in the 90s.

I did discover the Neutrogena hydrating wipes and now its all i’ll need makeup remover wise. My days of lusting for Koh Gen Do wipes are long gone. The original Neutrogena wipes were good but these hydrating ones are amazing on my dry skin.

What to Pack When Traveling.

So its almost that time when I decide where to travel and my heart is set on the west coast. I always pack too much. I packed very little on my overseas trip yet I packed everything on my island getaway. Very unnecessary and I realized I had over the pack limit yet the nice guy was like ah its creams. Sorry guy!

So this time around I’m debating sample sized shampoo some makeup wipes but I do I take eye cream? has anyone given the Becca under eye brightener a try? I want that. I have dark eye circles. lol

Vitamin C Products +Antioxidant Moisturizers!

Today I want to talk about how I started using a vitamin c product as a result of a good sample from Dr Brandt! I’ve been trying to undo some of my old sun damage and acne scar marks.  I read about how vitamin c was potent and could improve past damage and that by using the vitamin c products you are more prone to burning so you needed a titanium dioxide or zinc oxide or both sunscreen over them. I started using the Dr Brandt vitamin c serum mixed with the Xtend Your Youth cream day and night for about 4 days and I was pretty happy with my skin that I finally bought both the vitamin c serum and the cream. I have been using the vitamin c serum and the cream together in the daytime and layering it with my skinceuticals spf 50 and at night, I use the XYY cream with a couple drops of the Trish Mcevoy antioxidant booster(sample) I see a big improvement with the lightening of my sunspots and the acne scars are fading little by little. I figured why not share this info! I wash my face with Kate Somerville’s exfoliKate cleanser, use a clarifying lotion from Clinique then follow with the vitamin c serum+antioxidant cream. That’s my routine but never forget your sunscreen!

The only problem I seem to have now is that my sunscreen makes me pale like a ghost. What I do to fix that is patting on some Becca rose gold shimmering skin perfector and finishing my look with the stila aqua glow concealer.

iPod Broke and Im Devastated

Im so devastated about my iPod giving out. My friend and her brother say I can get the battery looked at but I don’t know. If its going to cost a fortune Im almost tempted to replace it for a newer one. When you really need to save money, things just have to break! Im already trying to get some more pricey skin products to combat my sunspots and acne and now my iPod? I almost dropped my macbook and I was like great I can just break everything at once and just have my iPad. lol

Anyway I do have some skincare update and funny I say this now after not even giving it a shot but Im really digging the Mario Badescu drying lotion. Very good stuff. Im really trying my best to not touch my face when I breakout. After the one cream I won’t mention broke me out from my cheek to chin area I got all scarred up and Im trying to work on clearing that out with good skincare. Its strong so I would not recommend going near the sun with the product or putting it all over just on the new spots you want to go away. The AHAs products really clear my skin in general but the sun sensitivity is scary. Here I’m trying to improve sunspots but I forget I like to be by the sun for no reason sometimes. So Im currently using a bb cream with peptides and higher spf. Im cleansing with kate somerville’s foaming cleanser but I replaced the eradiKate with Mario Badescu.

My iPod couldn’t have broken at a better time because Im still trying to get a high spf product and replace my now empty night cream. I feel like if everything breaks, I might just stick with a bigger memory iPad or the thin macbook.

Wait a Minute…


Two nights ago, I got severe pain in my abdomen and had to read up on how/why. I started thinking maybe it was all the caffeine I had or maybe may diet and I may have been onto something because I read what to avoid when I have abdomen pain/cramps. I gave up coffee, sugar and the starchy foods and the discomfort got a little better. I didn’t read about green tea being bad so I replaced my coffee with green tea and basically changed my drinks to water and green tea. I got lazy and started mixing the two together and the next thing you know I started losing a lot of body fat. WHAT. Are you telling me it was that easy?lol

So anyway dark green tea mix it with water. I drink lots of it all throughout the day.  There is a real cool store a couple miles from where I live its really like a select shop and they carry everything I love but Im never thin enough to make a purchase. Has anyone had that feeling? They’d carry up to a size 30-31 and Im off the grid there. lol. Im finally inspired to really do a 180 for myself. I’ve decided to start jotting down what I eat, the calories and keep track of how long a work out each week….so that’s that and this summer I plan to paint my nail in every green and blue shade available. I just thought that would be fun. On my wish list is a nice darker yellow, a lilac purple polish, that new styling wax from Oribe and of course anything from the Tom Ford summer line! I bought 2 things from Tom Ford and now Im hooked. The rose soleil lipstick is phenomenal! The shade is so beautiful.