Near Death Experiences=New Mindset.

I was very excited to see Annee de Mamiel on intothegloss today! I love her products and up until a couple years ago I bought them religiously I quit because you could only get them at certain stores and I don’t use a lot of items in glass bottles because I’m clumsy and I drop them. Her travel oil was great, her facial oils are great but I especially loved the body serum so if you thought about lets just say people were asking me what perfume it was I was wearing and that it was beautiful.

After hearing about her cancer and her fight it brought me back to my near death experience which was during late November of 2011 and early February 2012. What happens is my father gets pneumonia a real bad case of it. We live in the same house I end up with pneumonia in November 2011. It got so bad I could no longer stand on my feet or breathe my life was about being in a bed all but like twice a day when i’d get up and fix myself a bowl of soup then head back to sleep..that’s if I got any. Then I got an immune problem as a result and I break out in a fever in early 2012 that went on for 2 weeks and I have people send me to urgent care where I’m told by the doctor that he’d never seen something so bad and severe and was surprised I lived through everything. I was so depressed I thought about how I could just give up on my own but I thought that wasn’t fair to the people that can’t choose to live so I fought very hard and the worst pain wasn’t the lung issue it was my lymph nodes that flared up the one between my ear and jawline..oh it was bad the throbbing pain from that alone. One day I finally felt this calmness and urge to sleep so when I  turn my back and the dog growls and barks only at me and I sensed it was “my time to go” and shockingly I was ok with it because I was so tired…I think animals have that power and they see things we don’t and I remember my mom going “what happened” and me going “I don’t know but I was real sleepy.” My mom was like “I think you were going to die and that your dog sensed it because our dog is so chill” What I did during my long sick days was set up a fan by my face, put my hair in a bun and hope I could sleep a couple hours. Being sick is horrible once I recovered I got sick one more time in March and I was like COME ON!

HERE’S WHAT I LEARNED AND QUIT DOING AFTER BEING SICK, I GAVE UP THE FOODS I ATE PRIOR TO GETTING SICK. MY FATHER MOTHER AND I WERE EATING THE SAME THINGS MY MOTHER HOWEVER ATE CLEAN ON THE SIDE. I LEARNED OUR FOOD HAD ANTIBIOTICS IN IT.